Especially when real life is bringing me so much stress.
So my brother and my sister-in-law are separating after just over a year of marriage. Unfortunately there's my 8 week old nephew in the middle of that, and she told him she doesn't want anything from him but for him to sign over his parental rights because "I'm not gonna be tied to you for 18 years."
In the meantime, she texts me cute pics of the baby as of she didn't just threaten to take him away from us all.
FUCK THAT.
Then I'm dealing with some career things. Unsure if I have a future here. It's getting increasingly stressful, there are way too many things to juggle, and it all falls on me in the end. I'm not included in a lot of planning conversations, which is bullshit, considering I'm the one who has to execute the plan.
Current example (and this is something that happens frequently):
Next week we have a staff development day that we needed to move off-site, due to how many people and what we need. I asked REPEATEDLY if this was the same group that attended the staff day in August - I was told yes. I planned for that amount of people. Turns out it is NOT that group, it's a group half the size.
Since I brought up the August day - I was given a different head count than she gave to the presenter, so the presenter didn't bring enough materials. This was somehow my fault until the presenter pulled her aside and was like, here's the email you sent me, these are the numbers you told me. At least I had that vindication.
Then she keeps scheduling things at times that I had already LONG SINCE scheduled things, and she runs around telling people that I'm overbooking us.
No. YOU are overbooking us.
And it's probably only going to get worse. If she takes another position (and I know she aims to), then I can join her, and I don't want that position at all. Especially because it means she'll be even more scattered and I'll be even further out of the loop. It'll just be a team of us two, not a team of four, so I won't be able to get info out of anyone else when I don't get it from her.
*sigh*
I did take another civil service test for a title change and a raise, but I think I might also get job offers from that, and I might seriously consider them, depending on pay. This shit is getting out of control.
Is this a passive-aggressive rant?
Here's a better question: Do you think it is?
If you think it is, do you thnk I have a reason to be irritated?
Do you maybe have a bit of a guilty conscience?