So I've been becoming increasingly disillusioned by this game and damn near everyone in it as of late. People constantly shifting sides and loyalties and getting pissed off over things that shouldn't even bother anyone, and almost everyone is more full of shit than the last person.
The only loyalty anyone should ever have in this game is to themselves and their characters. I've said it before, I'll say it again, when you develop someone's personality, it should stay consistent unless something causes them to change. And the change should make sense, because when it's an OOC decision, it's painfully obvious, and it really affects other people's gameplay. Additionally, don't bring your ridiculous OOC crap into it, because, ONCE AGAIN, if your character's opinion suddenly sounds less like theirs and more like yours, it's obvious, and it's lazy. And it makes me not want to be around you, at all, because your RP feels cheap and weak.
Now, some of you have let me know in your own passive-aggressive ways that my absence has been noticed. And you know what? I don't really give a shit. If I'm not feeling the game at the moment, then I'm not fucking feeling the game at the moment, and no amount of prodding is going to change that. In fact, it's only going to make it feel worse. I already spend 40 hours a week doing things because it's demanded of me, I don't need it from anyone here. The more you poke, the less I respond.
And on the flipside, if you no longer want to RP with me for any reason, have the balls to tell me. Don't just drift away and offer some excuse.
Suffice it to say, I really have no motivation at the moment for creating storylines on anyone. Not even Maddi, and that's saying something. I will continue to go with the flow on anything that comes my way, but I am past burnt out at coming up with anything new, and frankly, I have been for a long time.
To those of you with whom I've always along and have never had any issues, I'm sorry that our RP constantly suffers due to my frustration with others. Sadly, I can't even promise that this will change.