It's stressful as hell.
And it has completely absorbed any and all the downtime I used to have, where I used to think about and plot my responses and blogs - or actually reply or write, as opposed to just thinking about what to reply or write. Basically, I work through breaks, through lunch, and still don't feel like I got everything done. It's getting to the point that I might end up continuing my workday from home. Oh, and there's not enough funds to pay overtime, so there's a good chance I'll be doing that work for free. Anyway, long story short, I get home from work and the last thing I want to do is think.
And I really really really don't want to think of Popmundo as a job, as work - ever - because the day that happens is the day I stop logging in. It's the reason I've been on an indefinite hiatus from my fiction site. Whenever I'd get on a nice flow, to the point where I was adding a new chapter every weekend - which only happened because I'd written so much during the week and typed up a chapter on Saturdays - then all of a sudden my readers were under the impression that I would continue to add a chapter every week. Sometimes it didn't work that way, and when I "missed" a week, then two, they flipped the hell out. So far, all of you that I RP with have not been this way, and I love you for it.
I'm also in that zone where I'm kind of fixated on one character over another. As I've admitted to a couple of you, Madalynne is really my focus as of late. She's growing up, and I'm really establishing who she is, what she's all about, and it's exciting. So everyone else is getting a little neglected, and I'm sorry.
So... to recap:
Hopefully this Saturday (it will depend on how my Friday night goes) I will get to replying to some things. Sunday is shot because it's football and we'll be tailgating all day.
To-do list:
Troy - time to stir things up
Parker - time to get in trouble
Nate - time to make some plans
There's definitely a pattern to which of my characters are neglected (I'll give you a hint, basic anatomical difference) and I also realized that when I really get things going with one, the other two follow and then all the girls suffer. Maybe I get into a male mindset and can't switch back? Weird, right? I'm still so so so so so so screwed when these kids grow up. Olivia is almost 10! Only a matter of time before she's old enough for me to figure her out.
I know I suck at life right now . I'll make it up to you.